untold pain

the pains of losing lost loved ones are unbearable
you know what worst?
they excuse themselves.

how much its hurt them
until they think leaving is the best choice
how unbearable it is
how hurtful it is
till they became soo brave

taking your own life
not easy
u cant just take the knife and stab yourself
u cant just take the pillow and tekup muka sendiri
your conscience will stop you
your body will resist
how much hurtful its must be
that your mind giving off
your body too
unimaginable

i have been there once
i guess its not hurtful enough for me
my mind and body are still resisting
they decide to not giving up
hence, here i am
still living
even recklessly
im living

the things about depression are
lonely. unsolved problems, unbearable life
they had a problem, they dont know how to solve it, and they have nobody to lean on

so the best way to comfort them is, be there for them
even if you dont have solution for their problems, its okay.
just be there, listen to them,
even if you dont have anything to say, its okay.
just be there, by their side.

things about this life,
if we dont have solution for our problems,
dont worry,
it will be solve soon.
time will solve it for us
dont think about it so much
divert your attention with something else
just hang on.
be strong. and patiently wait.

hold their hands,
and be by their side
provide them strength
so that
they will be strong enough to wait for that day

do it do it do it
better safe than sorry
the pain of losing your loved ones due to depression will make you depress too
the guilt will kill you
and we will have another victims
and the list will go on
so dont wait till its too late