Family

Today i met a trainee counselor from uum sintok doing internship here at my campus. The real intention was to help her with her study. Since i know how struggling it is to make a report without getting any job done. Haha exactly what im doing during my internship. Just write anything as long as it is fucking logic. Really hard though.

As stress as i am, i never thought i am lonely or miserable. As far as i know myself, i am a happy gal and have a bad hot tempered in me. Never did i know i am that lonely. That miserable. During the session, the counselor ask my dream. What i dream in my life. Only that question makes me sobbing real hard.

I started with how i want to be an engineer and have a happy life. But at the moment im telling about my family, tears running down my cheeks. I got a fucking big dream that i myself realise they are not going to come true. I cry as i think how can i make my parents and siblings proud.

It sounds easy, FAMILY . They will never leave. They will always be there. This kind of securement makes us forget that we need to pay them back. We need to take care of them back. Lets not only receive, lets give back.

I really want to make them happy. Make them proud. I really really want. Really.